One Of Those Days
Does anyone else ACHE for someone they know will never come around and there in NO chance of you being with that someone.DUDE, I am having on of those aching today so bad! It is in my gut and it is eating me from the inside out!
I HATE these days because nothing makes it better and just about everything makes it worse!
I have know him for 15 years and dated him for 6 or 7.....we eneded VERY BADLY. What can I say he was my first love and he hurt me. For around 3 years I would even be in the same building as him. REALLY REALLY didn't think I liked him but looking back I think I was just so damn angry because I still loved him. (Loved him man that even sounds wierd) Anyways about 3 years agao I decied to call a truths....the energy it took to hate him was really starting to consume me. He had always tried to be nice and still keep in touch but I wasn't having any part of that. Then one day I just said ok that's it no more hating! I felt so damn liberated....like a 10 million pound weight had been lifted off of me. So we starting talking and both dated other folks and talked then the and other stuff came along.
Just before I moved we had a sexy thing or two. nothing ever come of it........well of course it didn't........I was moving 720 miles away! So we still texed and talk and when I go to TN I always stop by and you know stuff!
Today we texted for about and hour or so and man did it hit me! I didn't keep myseld busy enough and I caught myself listening to music and looking at pics and well you know here come the ACHING feeling.
Maybe venting on here will make it better......yeah right and maybe monkeys will fly out my butt too!
Just needed to type awhile of course no one is up at this hour so I got the blog to talk to! LOL!
posted by Guvnah @ 1:38 AM
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