Lovers of the Secret Kind
Well I got 2 very different answers to some of my questions............Being happy with a secret lover is way different the being happy with some one you live with or date. TRUST ME I know this one........
I have a guy that lives with me here in Texas {M} he moved here after I did. We were seeing each other before the move. All of my friends will tell ya this is NOT the guy for me.....and you know if we were still back home that is SO TRUE he wouldn't be the person I would be in a relationship with. I guess my trip home is what brought up the Secret thing....there are people back home that I would like to be with and will be sexually but not as a couple. Tried to talk one of them into moving to Texas with no luck.
So this is the new question when is a relationship just enough of a convince to keep people together? Where do you draw the line? Why can't I just be happy by my damn self? It is not like M is the best man I ever met! He doesn't light a fire in me.......he is company for me and my dog..........he hasn't been working but that is ok because he does all the house work. Do I just not feel anything for him because he does have a purpose? A girl likes to see her fella go off to work and bring home $$$ right? Maybe I see him more as a roommate? Probably more along those lines.......we NEVER have sex anymore.....haven't in sometime now! Hence the need for a lover right? Ah who the hell knows I am just rambling! I always get this damn way when I am getting ready to go back home to Tennessee! How nuts is that......I start thinking about what I think I want and could have with some one and it drives me insane! ENOUGH RAMBLING FOR NOW!
I am very excited to go home don't take all this bullshit above to mean that I am not looking forward to it because I totally am! Just wish things were A LOT DIFFERENT in my bedroom life! LOL!
My sis had knee surgery today I hear she is good........came throught it just fine and dandy! I am very glad and can't wait to see her sweet face!
I think the gals and Adam are going to Chatt town for drinks on Friday night and HorrorFest on Saturday! Mary and I love horror films and the After Dark Films has 8 Movies To Die For in Chatt Town the weekend I am home! HELL YES! It's ON like Donky Kong! LOL
Peace to your Mother!
posted by Guvnah @ 10:13 PM
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