Tennessean turned Texan

Well I haven't been much on the blogging lateley, but never the less here I am.
I am updating on my niece.......I wish it were good news......***SIGH***the Doctor called a family meeting yesterday and my mom and dad went to hear what was said.

They are only giving Presly a 10 to 15% chance of making it with the bone marrow transplant......she doesn't qualify for experilmental drugs because the radiation and chemo have made her heart too weak, and there is no chance with out the transplant. real encouraging hugh???? Well if Tracey and Jim decide to go ahead with the transplant Presley will go through 7 more weeks of radiation and chemo......the last 2 weeks b4 the surgery she wouldhave 2 radiation treatments and 1 chemo in the same day and the doctors don't expect her little body to be able to handle all that!

I think this is the worst thing ever.........when my uncle died in 2001.....I really took it hard. I lost 1 of MY BEST FRIENDS and another very close friend (had she been her longer would have been a BEST FRIEND also) in the same year. All were very bad ways to be taken from this earth. the girls were taken because of people who had NO respect for other human life........and my uncle was taken just way too early he had so much goodness in him that he shared with everyone.....a real shame that he wasn't here longer to spread more of his goodness! Anyway this thing with Presley I think is the worst.....this poor child is never gonna be able to know the world.......who she would grow up to be or love, or any of those things that we take for granted as adults everyday.

Pure and simple IT SUCKS ROCKS! No way around it........For those of you who know me very well this next part will not upset you but for those of you who are GOD people please beware and please understand that I don't worship the devil or any of that crap this is just my personal feelings ok so if you get offended easily DON"T read the next few lines................To me if you were a faithful person crap like this would test your faith right.......when my uncle past the statement that I heard way toooooooo many times was that god had plans for him......or that god only puts on you what he knows you can handle, then there my personal fav oh it will get better with time.......well you know what IT DON'T GET BETTER WITH TIME! IT DON"T GET EASIER EITHER! I still have 3 very large holes in me where Robert, Angela & Misty's memories are.........it is hard to explain.....I am a people person not just any people but my people if you are my friend I care for you very much and you are in my thoughts every day I might not see you or talk to you but I think of you everyday and I know that if I need to or want to I can call or drive to see you..........with them I can't. And for folks to tell me that god had bigger plans for someone....well who cares about his plans......If everything is so damn great up there then why does he need more people and at such an early age.....there is a great deal more good needed here. So why does this crap happen to children age old question that you or I could spend the rest of our lives trying to figure out but we never will.

I guess this post has ran on long enough man I have went in several different directions today.....my emtions are high......so the update on Sis is NOT GOOD. but if you are into the prayer thing and you have been for her I appreicate it! She is a very sick little girl and it doesn't look good for the home team!

peace and love
The Texan

posted by Guvnah @ 7:29 AM