?? LOVE ?? AGAIN...........
Do you ever have times in your life where you feel like you are a BAD APPLE and that you are CURSED when it comes to LOVE?Have having one of those monets............I take that back one of those MONTHS!
For those of you who don't know the whole story here it is...........
back in April of 04 my Moma C set me up with an older man that worked at Carrier with me....that didn't last long about 3 months but WOW......it was a WILD RIDE....he loved to DRINK ALOT...he was a great deal of FUN loved to spend money on me but did I mention that he LOVED TO DRINK? well........needless to say that kinda ended in a BAD DRUNKEN FIGHT......well being the sweetie that Moma C is she let my cool off for a month then went to houndin me again about another guy there at the plant....he didn't drink and was a quite nice boy....those of you that love me for who I am know that a quite boy is not what I need but I agreed none the less...........TO my surprise he was nice......so we went out a couple of times then he started stayin with me some and we kinda well fell into a relationship (NOT SURE WHAT KIND MIND YOU).........anyways....not long after we started dating Carrier the company we worked for announced they were closing the Morrison, TN plant.........SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME! What would I do....I can't make the kinda money anywhere else....well to make a LONG STORY SHORT....I got a job that was a Carrier job at one time that was being outsourced to the Tyler, TX plant so I said what the HELL...........How bad can it be to live in Texas? Well moved out here in Feb of 05..........Mark knew that I was going to move so I said to him...."If you want to come out there after Carrier lays you off you are Welcome but I am not beggin!" Well to my surprise he moved with me..........Now get this.......we started out in a sexual relationship but some how it has become MUCH LESS than that now.............I told him as long as he paid HIS OWN BILLS that I didn't care if he worked or not but if he didn't work that he had to keep house(Fair enough RIGHT)well he does a GREAT job at house cleaning.....does my laundry, washes the dishes, vacuums, and take care of the Spawn of Saint's DOG. Well I know what you are thinking girls holly shit I would love a man that would do all that for me........Here is the catch 22 sorta speak.....He is really great at those things but we haven't had SEX since before Thanksgiving and after my Mom came out here with me after Christmas to move to our new apartment he has not slept in the same room with me much less have SEX! So ladies and gents I ask you would you keep the situation a float or cut your ties and let him go?
Well here is another twist.....I have been talking and texting with a past lover like my high school sweetheart kinda past lover! Of course we have text and talked for sat least 2 years now.
I have had thoughts about him you know the kind that make you send emails to let him know how you feel (you think you feel anyways) about him....{hence the whole post about love last week}....anyways I guess if you never go down that road you never know where you MIGHT end up right? that is what I keep telling myself....He really started the whole thinking about him by apologizing for things that I really never thought he would and by admitting that he had done wrong which I never thought he would....I don't know I am soooooo in the DARK HERE! Matters of the HEART BE WARE!
So Here I am CURSED IN LOVE I think! I have a house maid that lives with me and I have a past love that might could be GREAT but I can't get him to answer my emails....OH WELL
What's a Girl to DO?
I know Rob if you read this one what would Chuck Norris do?
TaTa from Texas!
posted by Guvnah @ 11:24 PM
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